November 23, 2002.
INTERLUDE.

WHITE LIGHT.
        And then....

....WHEN THE LIGHT fades, she sees she's in a dingy room.
        The air is close, stuffy.  It hasn't circulated for a very long time.  She imagines this is what the air inside a pyramid must smell like.  Or a very dry underground cave.
        Above her, a bare, dim bulb hanging on a string.
        In the light from the single bulb, she can see a desk and a chair.  And also stacks of books beside the desk.  And walls lined with bookshelves.
        The bookshelves are filled with books, and DVDs, and CDs, and videotapes.  But the light near the bookshelves is dim, and so she can't make out titles.
        The floor is covered in gray tile.
        She walks up to the desk.
        On the desk, sits a computer.
        The computer appears to be on, but the screen has been turned off to conserve energy.

SHE HEARS A sound, a drone.  Or more like a whine.  It's constant, harsh.  Not quite piercing, but definitely not relaxing.  At first, it appears to be a single tone.  But when she listens to it carefully, she finds she is able to pick out ascending and descending subtones, types of harmonics, other drones and almost voicelike effects that have been created through the interaction of a constant sound bouncing off itself.  Like the eternal whine of tinnitus.
        She looks down at the desk and sees, on a slanted platform, a small card.  She looks at the card.  It reads:

        NOW PLAYING:
        THREE VIOLINS-- TONY CONRAD.

NOTHING HERE IS very dusty.  Not that this place has been kept clean, far from it.  This room isn't dusty simply because the air is so still, so close.  There's very little life, if there ever was life, here.  In order for there to be dust, there has to be life.  Or disintegration.  Or at least motion.

AND SHE WALKS past the desk, to inspect the walls.
        Where there are no bookshelves, there appear to be posters.  But in the bad light of that single dim bulb, she can only make out fragments of words and images.
        Posters over posters.  Posters of bands, of movies-- possibly.  Also drawings that look like they might be from Japanese cartoons: cute girls with big eyes, their faces partially obscured by even more posters.
        And, out of the corner of her left eye, she sees a glimmer of light.

SHE TURNS TOWARDS the glimmer, and strains to see more.
        The glimmer appears to be coming from a doorway.  She walks towards to doorway.
        And, the closer she gets, the more the doorway begins to define itself.  It turns into the entrance to a corridor.
        And she walks to the entrance, and she squints to see inside-- darkness, and rows of tiny lights.
        And she hears humming sounds, and she gropes to find a light switch.  Finds one.  Turns it on.
        When her eyes adjust to the sudden appearance of rows and rows of fluorescent lights, she sees computers.
        On both sides of the corridor, on metal racks, hundreds of computers.
        And the racks and the computers stretch into the distance.  The corridor seems to go on forever.

EACH COMPUTER HAS a corresponding monitor attached.  The computer stands upright, and the monitor sits beside.  The lights on the monitors are all on, but the monitor screens themselves are dark.
        The racks are gray, metal.
        Each monitor has a small green light.
        And, again, no dust.
        She reaches for the first monitor.  Presses the button under the screen.  The monitor comes to life.

ON THE SCREEN, she sees a rotating human form.  Male, generic, but not very well defined.  And, above the rotating form, in red block letters, the word:

BOB

SHE REACHES TOWARDS another monitor.  Turns it on.  The rotating form on this screen is female.  Again, the form is generic, not well defined.  A simple human shape.  And the letters above it read:

HEATHER

STEPPING INTO THE corridor, she activates monitors.  She activates them in sequence.  As they light up, she sees more spinning forms:

BRIAN (COFFEE SHOP)
BRIAN (HIGHSCHOOL)
BRIAN (VANCOUVER)
BRIAN (AGE 4)
BRIAN (AGE 17)
        And so on.

SHE WALKS DEEPER into the corridor, turning on random monitors, now:

ALEX
ROBBIE
KIM
BECKY
ROBIN
        A spinning cartoon mouse appears on a monitor with the caption:
MOUSE
        And the next monitor brings:
EAGLE
        After that, a cute little kitten called:
KITTY CAT
        And then two more monitors and this time two humanoids:
MIKEY
NEVIL
        Next:
WILLIAM S. BURROUGHS
        And:
CUBE FROM
MONSTERS OF GRACE
        And:
NICK CURRIE
MASAMI AKITA
LAURIE ANDERSON
WILLIAM GADDIS
        A few monitors down, dozens of spinning, low resolution people form a rotating tableau entitled:
CROWD SCENE #7
        She shudders.
        She cannot see the end of the corridor.
        She runs forward, the sound of her feet echoing off the ceiling and the racks-- and then she stops.
        She turns to the monitor to her left, and then activates it.
        Before she sees the spinning form, she reads the red block letters:
UNNAMED WOMAN READER
        And then, terrified, she stabs power button on the monitor.  The monitor goes black.  But, beside the power button, the green light remains.
        White light.

AND NOW SHE'S standing in a huge tile covered room.  The tile is dirty, brown.
        And, she thinks to herself, it looks like a food court of a university.  But there are no food kiosks.  In fact, the stretch of tile she is standing on seems to be (as near as she can tell) infinite.
        And, it is white, porcelain tile, actually, not brown.
        And, in fact, the food court doesn't have any kiosks because it in no way resembles the food court of a university.
        And, actually, it isn't tile she is standing on at all, it's more like a grid.  Like an infinite expanse of graph paper.
        And, above her: a cold night sky filled with stars.
        And the stars are going out, one by one.
        She watches them.
        And when the last star finally goes out (it actually takes quite some time for this last star to go out, and her neck is sore now from being tilted back for such a long time), she begins walking forward.
        And, strangely enough, even though the sky above her is black and starless, she can still see.
        This, she thinks, is a desperate place.
        And to her right, in the distance, hovering above the grid, she sees what looks like a rodent and a bird spinning together, the two locked in what looks like a perpetual state of combat.
        Mouse and Eagle, she thinks, yeah yeah I get it.  Ha, ha, ha....
        And she walks forward, past the battle raging above.  And she uses the mouse and The Eagle as a kind of pole star, continuing forward but looking behind, and watching them slowly shrink as they recede.
        And she continues walking.
        And the mouse and The Eagle get smaller and smaller.
        And then the mouse and The Eagle are gone.
        And now, out here on the grid, she's all alone.
        So she aligns herself with one of the grid-lines, and continues on....

Next:  A beginner's guide to the reconciliation of good and evil....
 

© 2002 Brian Cotts.
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