*30* INTERLUDE SIX: "The Fire Sermon."

30.EPILOGUE.73: December 23, 2003 -- INFINITY.
"*30*."

INTERLUDE SIX:
"The Fire Sermon."

I'm getting older, they're getting older, and every day it scares me more, and then one day they'll be gone and I'll be really and truly alone, and I never really ever do anything nice for them, and when they're gone I'll have to take care of it, and when I'm gone there will be nobody to take care of me, or rather what's left of me, which will be nothing but a bunch of skin, fat, bones, and a whole pile of fucking writing that nobody care about at all and....
                 -- Reason #6725 why I stay awake all night
                     staring at the ceiling, and when I finally fall asleep
                     I grind my teeth all night
                     and then I wake up even more tired
                     than when I fell asleep,
                     jaw aching and eyes rough,
                     blinded by the light...

        Sitting on the couch with my Dad. We're watching tv.
        One of those commercials comes on: "Reader's Digest Great Love Songs," or something.
        A six cd set of all your old favorites. Titles scroll by on the screen.
        "These guys," Dad says with a vague numbness in his voice, "most of these guys are dead, now...."

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